i eagerly wait to hear it from you.

that i no longer come in your thoughts.

that even unknowingly you dont recall old days.

that suddenly you are never thrown back in time.

that you dont remember any of our moments together.

that you hardly remember you had a different life before.

that you are so much more happy today.

that you love the way life has turned out to be.

that you couldnt have asked for more....

Today

And then i realise....
This might just be the day that unknowingly you remember me.
For atleast a moment, you may go back in time.
For a split second you may miss those times.
For some time , you may let your mind wander.
And i might find my place.
It would be enough.
For me to spend another year.
Waiting till next time.
Years will go by.
I will continue to live on it.
Till one day You decide otherwise.
Life will remain the same for you.
And I still wont be ready to accept the truth.
As always.
I will think that i exist somewhere for you.
Somewhere within you......
Maybe Someday I will accept the truth.
Maybe someday i will cry till i die.

Past Perfect

The past seems so far away. Memories are few and faded.
I cannot remember things. Which were so close to my heart.
I look into the mirror. I surprise myself.
My reflection smiles at me. I am at loss of words.
I know whats wrong. I consciously hide it.
The world seems different. All is new.
Have i been born again? Who am i ?
I yearn for my old memories. Good & Bad.
They define me. I am obsessed with it.
I walk backwards. Its difficult.
Its exciting. And Its foolish.
I feel happy. This is it.
This is what i want. That is what i deserve.